We got together at the BFF's for the big game.
We ate.
We drank.
Watched football.
Played Wii-where I kicked hiney hoser in bowling.
And Doug wrestled around with Karen's 4 year old so much, that he made poor Bubby puke!
Then he got back up for more.
Boys!
With friends, family and a box of photos that randomly appeared...we had a blast from the past.
We came across pictures of ex's...pictures of Karen's wedding...babies...and FUN FAT FOTOS.
Everyone laughed, hooted and were astonished over some of them.
Then...Karen's mom found a picture of me probably at my heaviest in 2002. Doug looked at it with a crinkled nose and wide eyes...that was you?? Wow! Now mind you, I was a size 12. Okay...probably a size 14 but wouldn't buy any clothes that said so. I wasn't obese...but heavy and not anywhere close to in shape.
Looking at those pictures made me cringe. It made me very uncomfortable. Even today, thinking about them makes me sick. Not that I was embarrassed or didn't want Doug to see them. I don't care about that. It was something more. I'm not sure I can put my finger on it. Did it bring me back to a place I didn't want to be?
It was almost like I was looking at pictures of someone else.
That was me?
That was me.
I say 40 pounds heavier. Others call me on it and say it was more.
Who is that person? What were you thinking? What were you feeling?
Either way...that is not me ANYMORE.
NEVER AGAIN.
And I can't be happier to say that.
So glad that you realized that and lost the weight the right way! You are inspiring!
ReplyDeleteAmen, I know exactly what you are talking about! the great thing is people who know me now say they can't imagine that I was ever any heavier, which to me means I've done it right.
ReplyDeleteWow. I feel that way when I see old home videos of me. The ones from when I'm in highschool and so lanky (but thought I was HUGE) make me wish I could have appreciated who I was at the time. And then the ones from college hurt me - because I was so much bigger and uncomfortable in my skin. It's weird to not recognize yourself. Congrats on finding yourself.
ReplyDeleteMy congratulations Kim, good work dropping the pounds.
ReplyDeleteWeight is one of those things isn't it? My weight has been up and down like a toilet seat. Currently I'm trying to lose at least 15lbs before we really get into Marathon training...keep your fingers crossed!
Lily
I had kept my "fat" photos for awhile as motivation to keep fit, but then I didn't need them for instpiration any longer and trashed them all...that is not me anymore too!
ReplyDeleteyou are inspiring! congrats on such an accomplishment and for working so hard!!
ReplyDeleteHi, I came across your blog and am absolutely amazed at your goals and how far you've come in such a short time! Great job!
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